95%
After three weeks of living in my new apartment, the dust has begun to settle and for the most part, I've returned to my old ways of doing things. It's the famed "Eric Hu 95% rule." Basically, it means that at most, I tend to complete up to 95% of a taste before stopping, either too lazy or too satisfied to finish up the remaining 5%. I make this observation because I'm sitting at my new desk, the one I waited weeks to get delivered while my DVD cases sat stacked up "temporarily" in the other room, waiting to be organized. Well, the desk arrived a week ago, and I simply haven't mustered up the energy to move the DVD cases over to the desk and organize them properly. Once again, I've only complete 95% of the task. In fact, I'm probably going to end up writing about 95% of this blog, and then leave the computer on while I sprawl across my new sofa and watch 95% of a Grey's Anatomy Episode.
However, this 95% rule can be said to only apply to my life 95% of the time. Which means that the other 5% of the situations I face I either don't do at all, are meticulously program to the point where one could possibly say I invested 120-130%! And in those rare instances, usually in matters of great importance to me such as a) finishing all the food placed in front of me and b) attempting to find true happiness in the realm of love and emotion, I find that 120% usually means that I'm trying extra hard to change something that simply cannot be changed.
Do people, myself included, have the capability to alter something fundamental in their nature? Does it take time, patience...or is it a hopeless cause? Or does it vary, depending on which fundamental...and which person? I struggle with these questions as I find myself giving 120% to something...and I'm not sure I'm even getting close to 95% in return. Perhaps it is time for me to ratchet it down, to stay within the confines of the 95% rule. It's gotten me far enough in to provide me a blissful and contented life. I guess it is just that I thought I could finally get to 100% on something, to feel whole...and instead I'm still wandering around in the wilderness.
Time to lose myself in a television series...
However, this 95% rule can be said to only apply to my life 95% of the time. Which means that the other 5% of the situations I face I either don't do at all, are meticulously program to the point where one could possibly say I invested 120-130%! And in those rare instances, usually in matters of great importance to me such as a) finishing all the food placed in front of me and b) attempting to find true happiness in the realm of love and emotion, I find that 120% usually means that I'm trying extra hard to change something that simply cannot be changed.
Do people, myself included, have the capability to alter something fundamental in their nature? Does it take time, patience...or is it a hopeless cause? Or does it vary, depending on which fundamental...and which person? I struggle with these questions as I find myself giving 120% to something...and I'm not sure I'm even getting close to 95% in return. Perhaps it is time for me to ratchet it down, to stay within the confines of the 95% rule. It's gotten me far enough in to provide me a blissful and contented life. I guess it is just that I thought I could finally get to 100% on something, to feel whole...and instead I'm still wandering around in the wilderness.
Time to lose myself in a television series...
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